My boyfriend broke up with me 3 weeks ago today and everyday is more painful than the one before. I wake up and am instantly reminded how alone i am now and how he will never hold me in his arms the way i got so used to and so comfortable with and I can’t even begin to process that because of how much it pains my heart. I probably sound incredibly stupid and naive i just really miss him. Since the breakup he’s been a huge t*** and it has made it slightly easier to miss him less, but I genuinely loved him more than i can even describe and intended to marry him (i know, once again probably naive and stupid of me) but having that large of a hope ripped away from you so suddenly and unexpectedly is so incredibly hard to cope with. I just don’t know what to do, I’ve tried talking to him, drinking to cope s*lf h*rming to cope and nothing makes me feel better. I hope it gets better soon