My feelings got too much so i wrote a letter i’ll never send but here it is for random people to potentially see

i will never get over you
i don’t think i love you but i don’t know why i’m still thinking about you with an empty feeling in my chest. i ended things, in a very mean, harsh way. I know i hurt you, but you moved on. and i’m so so so happy for you. you found a perfect, kinda, smart, beautiful, outgoing, caring girl, and all i can do is watch and try to be happy for you bc my turn with you is done. the hurting is done. but in my heart you’ll always be mine. I was too immature to give you what you wanted, and needed, and deserved, and I’m so sorry for making you question and doubt yourself. you deserve to be uplifted and listened to and to be someone’s number one choice. I’ll never talk to you again so I’ll never know if you hate me or not. but if i could say one thing to you, I’d tell you that you deserve to have the world and that i’m sorry i could never give it to you.