My mom is in a 12 step program that has saved her life in every aspect. But it is cult like and she worships her sponsor.
My dad s******* abused me.
My sister died on the day we celebrated my third birthday.
My friend is homeless carless and jobless and I’m terrified she’ll overdose.
I graduated from a school That had one of the deadliest mass shootings in history. My one old friend was murdered and her body was dumped in the wilderness.
My mother never told me they tried in vitro for my sister That died. Or that my dad only saw her 3 times in her whole life.
My boss blew up on me twice for the 3rd time In a little over 2 weeks. I feel 2 inches tall. And I’m terrified of my job security and I’m supposed to move it. My husband’s friend I think hates me. Idk for sure though. I have worked 3 jobs for 3 years and I had no money cuz I’m a food addict. I have no savings after ten years of working. I have a whole network of unparalleled support but I still feel misunderstood or just not at home in myself my own Brain or even my life bc I’m not sure if I’m going to be employed or where I’ll live. I know I can get through it but I don’t know if I want to. I drive through cemeteries and death comforts me. I want to just give in. I’m so tired of treading water. I want to float