i want to kill myself. I want to feel the most pain a human being can ever experience. I’m a horrible person and I let everybody down. my mom probably wants to beat me and all my friends probably hate me. the only thing I have to be proud about is my grades and I’m not even that smart. I can’t even tie my own f****** SHOES. I’m such a miserable p************. I can’t even brush my teeth two days in a goddamn row. oooh but I can play some stupid a** game I don’t even like for like 9 F****** hours. ooh but I can eat so much my stomach hurts. Ill never commit or try to change anything, ill just keep on saying ‘ill try to be a better person this’ and do jack s*** about it. I feel sorry for my mom. she wanted a sweet little girl but she got me instead. she buys me all this s*** and I break it as soon as I get it. she deserves to be mad at me, to yell at me and make me feel like a p************. it hurts like hell but I deserve it. I have nothing to feel but shame. I’m sorry to everyone reading this. I apologize for giving you the burden of knowing that someone as pathetic like me exists.