Every time I scroll on social media I’m looking for my first girlfriend. We broke up after I couldn’t handle her parents hating me so much and her not being able to leave them. I know she can’t have socials because of me, and me turning her gay (it was actually the other way around). She ghosted me after we started talking again last year and I wish I could start over. I check every persons profile who even remotely resembles her, even though I know she isn’t them and I would recognize her instantly either way. I wish I had been better to her. J, if you ever see this, god do I still love you. You have my number, even if I’m too chickenshit to reach out first.