I first dated a guy to whom I fell in love when we have a simple eye contact when he was getting out of his car and boom he proposed me the next day felt like a fantasy we dated it goes kinda romantic and good in first 4 month I wanted to make it offical with my family and when the day I told it to my family about him and after I told him to about that stuff he vanished he just Left with no explanation broke up with me I still haunt me my family still taunt me for falling in love with him and after 2 year when I totally heals from that I give a second chance to love to a boy whom I met online and after dating 6 month n more he was cheating on me with her ex for so long time and all he turned out to be totally narcasstic blame me for all thing and told I you loved you but not more than her ex kept borrowing money against is ill financial condition . and suddenly one day told me if you are willing to have a physical relationship with me I promise to love you more it finally left me completely sick of my life can’t do it more fell like dying every day I never even thought love will turn me this why I still can’t find any answer to all . know stop believing in love , people , and other things f*** them all it will haunt me through all my entire life