2014, I drop out of PhD program.

Years health issues.

I end up smoking weed daily about 3 years ago.

No job, no career. Etc…

I’ve been literally just inside my room playing video games, watching p***, smoking pot, barely doing anything physical, been starving myself because my parents don’t buy a lot of the food I like.

So I haven’t really worked at all these last 2 years, but a couple weeks ago, it became clear I am running out of money and I have to do something.

So I started to do deliveries with one of the delivery apps. And what I have found is that:

All asian people are racist.

I am mixed white, my mom is white, my dad is mexican. Everywhere I go, asian people are racist. They ignore me, pretend I am not there, they are rude to me. Like never in my life before. I am 35 years old.

I had asian friends growing up, all throughout my school years even through my grad school stint. But I go out for the first time in a couple of years, and I am finding that all asian people are racist.

I don’t want it to be this way. The younger asian people I can understand, they didn’t live through the 90s like I did, so they don’t have a frame of reference for my type of white I guess, I am not really sure.

It is what it is I guess, and I am finding I have to mentally strategize to prepare for their racism ahead of time. The moment I walk into a restaurant to pick up food and I see an asian person, immediately I am preparing for their racism.