my ex boyfriend was so, so abusive to me, and i genuinely think he’d have tried to kill me (again) had i stayed with him. but i still love him, and even though he looks at me with rage in his eyes, i just want him to hold my hand again. even though he tells me i should have never been born i just want to hug him again. i want him back even though he was the worst thing that’s ever happened to me <3