I want to be in love . I want to be in love so bad that it hurts. But the butterflies never arise for anyone and my heart never skips a beat. I’ve seen many attractive people, way too many to count of course but they’re nothing more than an attractive face. How do you fall in love? are there steps that im missing ? what am I doing wrong. why don’t I have the basic emotion that everyone else seems to have ? Not only that. Honestly even without love I just want to be near someone else. I want to cuddle them and hug them and shower them with kisses and forged love. Cuddling is never enough though . I want to be close with someone . But close is never close enough . I want to be pressed up against them so far that neither of us have space to new tween us to let our minds wonder and think about someone or something else. But even being pressed up to that extent isn’t enough. I want to be in their skin, taking every breath that they take, seeing ever sight that the see, feeling every item that they touch. I want someone to cuddle with. to watch movies with to talk to and listen to music with. is that so much to ask for ? you don’t even have to love me for i will not love you. just be close with me.