My emotion and personality are just so complex. From what i research on internet, Im an introvert, i prefer quiet thing and need to reboot from social circumstances, and i can also talk a lot when im interested in some topics. Also, i feels shy, when i have to stand in front of the crowd, my nervous systems kicks in, and it’s hard to control my voice, and my train of thoughts crashes, and i am conscious of others a lot. My parents want me to be more sociable, speak up more, and they say that’s what confident and clever people do. I dont wanna put up with a fake personality. How can i deal with life? What i want to achieve is to ignore other people thinking, and train my nervous systems not to overreact. Also, deal with social situations calmly without being someone else. Can someone give me advice on this? I’d appreciate that.