I can very clearly feel myself falling deeper and deeper into a depression. My family doesn’t like me and my mother has expressed hatred for me and my little brother doesn’t give a s*** about me. My friends I am convinced all hate me and my personal life s****. I am only 17 and am so afraid of everything around me. My father committed suicide a little over a year ago and had major depression for years before his passing so I am so afraid to mention how I feel to any of my family in fear they’ll compare me to him. I feel like suicide is seeming like a logical explanation to this problem even though I know its not. Everyday I get sadder and sadder. I hate myself and the way I am, I hate everyone around me I wish someone would just murder me.