So she is my best friend’s girl friend is my best friend now, a the friend i saying to as my best friend it is a bit of a stretch as i found him to be a selfish guy for many reasons but this confession is not on that, maybe some other time. We started talking once they were into each other but we instantly connected on many levels, she is kind of person i would like to date, she is cool and knowledgeable as well. She and I have not informed him that we are even friends so we are in shadows and the whole thing is I can never cheat on my friend to be with her, this feeling of missing her out in this way is killing me, she is killing her self in some similar ways. I cannot even confess to her and just thinking about him makes me sleepless at nights, i have been avoiding him from a long ago now, sometimes whole thing starts to kill me, i wish I was never born it would have been easier for people, i think i am no longer a good friend or a good person since i am in sin. I wish this could have been avoided or the roles reversed. She is the best, can’t loose her, can’t keep with her either, i just hate being in this situation l, it’s like i am poisoning my self she is suffering as well in this mess she also feels this way I know, hope one day i will come out of such regret.