I’ve been with him for 17 years. I don’t think I could function if I lost him. He’s everything. He’s my soul mate. Even if he found someone better, just knowing he was still here..alive and breathing..would keep me going. We are best friends. I can’t imagine that would ever change. It’s death that I’m so afraid of. If he dies, I know I will not be able to conjure the will to take a breath.