This will be long so I’m sorry for waisting your time;
I know I’m the pain in some people life’s, everyone be saying how annoying I am or how loud I am but the truth is. I’m Loud due the fact I never was heard by any of my parents or family members (there’s a lot of them) like even my aunt tells the story of when I was a baby I would be crying for quietly just because I was hungry but didn’t had my mother to feed me so had to just be there (she’s alive just was never home and dad would be busy drunk) so she would come from the other room to check on me and I would be full with tears but still quiet, and I’m “annoying” due the fact that I was never paid attention to or never had someone there to talk to or do stuff with. I feel bad after I come home or be with my boyfriend even because I think that he doesn’t love me and he just here because he wants to help me, I don’t know what love is or how to react to it same as attention it’s all too difficult for me. Maybe is just me, maybe im the problems