i hate being skinny and underweight so f****** much. I’m trying my best to eat much as i can and gain weight without throwing up or feeling sick.. i have so many things effecting my physical and mental health. my physical health makes me want to kill myself so many times. I’m starting to feel much better than before thanks to my boyfriend. I’m still underweight, but my boyfriend has made me feel so much better due to his support of helping me gain weight. gosh.. im crying while writing this. but all i can say is, i love you so f****** much and thank you, E. i love you. thank you for being here with me