Why do you expect nobody to be upset or angry at you for hurting them when they gave all they had and it wasn’t enough? Why do you expect people to suddenly be happy for you when you’ve destroyed lives by your actions? You don’t deserve the peace you think you do. You deserve to feel the pain too of loving someone beyond all reason and having them play mind games and pretend to plan a future that was never going to be. You wake up one day and everything you’ve known to be true is suddenly no more, because of lies and deception. You think you have some kind of right to leave people utterly destroyed to the point of wanting to die because the pain is that bad but YOU get to move on as if nothing even happened? F*** that and f*** you. I do truly wish you would be the one to die because then we could all get some closure, instead of having to watch you pretending to thrive. I say pretending because that’s what it is. Your ego makes you act out and try to portray something that isn’t. I do wish for your death and I am not sorry for that nor do I feel bad about it. THAT is the level of hurt you’ve caused. I have also wanted to die, but it’s you who doesn’t deserve to be here, not me. I didn’t ask for any of this. Not ever. Not when I built you up every minute of every day. Not when I was there for you when you were down, when I wiped away your tears when your grandmother died and I was the one you turned to for comfort. I treated you like a king when in reality you acted like a joker. So f*** you, f*** her, f*** your new life, f*** all of it. And f*** myself for letting you ruin me.