It s**** to not have any family want to put any effort into my birthday because they can’t stand the person I’m with. It’s very lonely to not be able to have a big family dinner or get together with all of my children and grandchildren or have someone make me my special favorite dessert ( it’s not the same for another to try and duplicate that). My current fling might make cringy posts and proclaim how much I am her life but it will never be the same as the family that I raised wanting to be there for me but I’m too stubborn to admit that I made a huge mistake so this is my life now, sad and alone with a bad woman and her little brat that I have to play daddy to.