i was supposed to clean the kitchen and bathroom today. my mother just came home from the hospital; i’m supposed to be there for her. instead, however, after grudgingly fulfilling each of her requests, i have yet to clean either. someone from the hospital is supposed to come and check up on her tomorrow. it was supposed to be on monday, yet now it’s tomorrow. my sleep schedule is just barely getting fixed, and i am really tired. i don’t want to be like my father, yet i just feel so horrible. i’ve been so mean to my mother for no reason. i’ve been witness to her praying and crying in the past 4 hours and i just feel helpless. i feel overwhelmed but it’s not even that much. i just wanted to fix my sleep schedule and as i was writing this i was just asked to keep an eye on her.

tldr: i’m simply freaking out over something that isn’t too big of a problem (i should be able to deal with it) and it’s translating into how i act with my mother after she’s come home from the hospital.