I feel like a burden and that no one truly loves me because I put on a show for everyone and am hyper aware of what everyone thinks of me. I don’t even know who I really am because I always change myself for other people and feel shame when I get tired pretending and they finally see who I think of as the real me: lazy, uninspiring, always in sweat pants and introverted, I can just see the disgust in their eyes and I sink deeper into that pit of caring about others’ opinions but being unable to change them
