I hurt you, you hurt me, we hurt each other when we don’t even mean to. Sometimes it’s so hard to be transparent with you because I already know what you’re going to say. It’s like you don’t think of anything any deeper than what’s presented. I go through my time trying to do cute romantic things and even the little things I do, like taking care of the kids just so you can get a good nap, or not complaining about you playing games for hours when I need to study or need help with the kids. For some reason I feel like I’m giving up a lot and you’re not seeing it. I’m sure it’s just all in my head because I understand that things are not always as they seem. But even then, I keep having this feeling like I’m doing so much. I get advices of having patience and endure, but damn, please tell me I’m not the only one enduring! Given we live with your parents, I’m ft student, and you’re ft working and we have 3 kids, but man it can really hurt when everything comes crashing down on you. It doesn’t help that your mother is a whole other issue in itself. Sometimes I feel like I can really leave, but I know what my responcibilities are and I don’t like being neglectful and I hate that I can’t when I know it’s so easy for others to do it like they breathe. I’m so tired, sad, lonely. I really hope this frustration and pain goes away soon. You really are my light but we are truly screwed in our current situation. It’s all over the place, it truly is.