I want to experience a cliché high school relationship. I never thought I’d be able to experience anything remotely close because before transferring schools, my world was so small, I never realized how big of a city I was in neither. I’m very sheltered and always have been, it’s like I just recently come out of a cocoon. LOL. I’m currently a sophomore in hs and transferred to a huge school, I had a crush on this one guy at the beginning of the year (he had a gf). So I watched him from the sidelines for a few months. After a few months I started liking this other guy, I ruined it and didn’t exactly act in a way that could make him fall for me I guess? Got rejected a few times by him, really sucked, the amount of times I’ve cried over him feels so unreal. Recently told him I wanted to distance myself, I didnt talk to him for a week then talked to him like before. I regretted my decision, then he got a lil cold so I decided to leave it be (as of now). I’m guessing I’m just not his type, he’s a basic lil lanky white boy so I assume he wouldn’t like me (I’ve got an artsy style ig). I’m a (kinda) fashionable person and am (kinda) pretty, there are quite a few people that like me and I feel flattered.. But idk I just like HIM. He’s got a cute face but that’s not the only reason why I like him, if I did only like him for his face I would have left as soon as he got that horrendous haircut. But yeah he’s just not interested whoops.. Hurts a lot though not gonna lie. I’m writing this while listening to cliché teenager sad music. (andromeda by weyes blood) Not to mention, this mf listens to lana del rey, I told my friends and they were making fun of him about it, but I found it so cute. If he liked me back I would be the Alex G, Cocteau twins, Car seat headrest male manipulator bf (I’m nonbinary btw more feminine though) and he could be the Phoebe bridgers, Lana del rey, beach house gf. But alas that is not possible because it is unrequited (oops rip me to i guess). I still feel like I’m the weird kid from middle school so that can be another possibility as to why it’s unrequited. But whatever. I actually saw a video on tiktok a few days back talking about moving on. Moving on isn’t denying feelings for someone, it’s just realizing you deserve way better. And you know what? THAT IS SO TRUE!!!!!!!! I tried so hard for this guy, texted him on the daily, watched a whole series with multiple seasons, worried about him 24/7, listened to music I didn’t exactly like. He started convos through text only a few times.. AND IM EVEN MORE OF A FOOL BECAUSE I NEVER TALKED TO THIS BOY IRL, I fell for a boy through text. And I’ve done it several times before, I just never knew these people in real life. AND nobody I’ve liked has ever liked me back, I know I’ve got a whole life ahead but I want to experience a cute hs realtionship.