My friends ask to date me, and when I say no, they abandon me – usually violently, destructively. I have only one friend left, who also wants to be a couple – but she doesn’t love me in a way I understand. She talks over me, doesn’t believe my words, thinks I’m wrong often. She knows so much about me, too much. It’s humiliating. She’s kind. She’s all I have left. I’m completely alone without her. I’m lonely when I’m with her. Everyone blames me. I’m so tired. I’m all alone. I’m ungrateful.