Quite frankly, yeah, I do need a hug. You saw me cry about how painful a woman’s lies can be before you even knew why. I never imagined that you’d see how much it affected me and think to do the exact same thing. Its identical.
I did something that I don’t want you to hate me for but I also want you, badly, enough to drag you thru the worst just because you’re the best.

Unfair. Cool, you got me back
The FaceTimes and intuitions
The videos and times together
Okay.. cool.. I’ll accept that

But don’t judge me without ever asking to understand. I became something I’m not.
Your secrets kept me up at night. Back when I had a heart, that is. I’m much more than “I’m stressed, come f*** me.” That’s what it took for all the genuine, honest, loving things I sent out to no avail – get a response. You want me to see more within myself but only ask me or see me when it’s convenient to get out of me what you hate for anyone else to see me as.

You can still lie to my face til this day. I tell you my situation, you say “it’s not me.” I tell you what you’re doing is not fooling me, s*******; financially, spiritually, I know where your p**** is, where your money goes, what your thinking about, to the T but it was never once just looked at like “okay, I’m sure if I show him that I’m not just some embarrassed of my actions, but a victim of yours, type girlfriend” maybe- his actions willingly will stop for good and I wont have any reason to embarrass myself! No.
Clear as day in my face doing everything you ask me not to, but invested in me not seeing you as well as anyone else. I did and do love you. I’m just a lot more than d*** or a dog or something you need to watch like the Truman show. Id never treat you in that manner…. I never got answers to any of the questions that I’ve honestly had stolen from me. And, if you want the truth, I went over there to grab my belongings. A n**** was there. I was in and out. I wanted to make sure I had no reason to go back before I gave you my all, but, I’m just some dumb d*** to you. Hope it was all worth it I guess, what you say now “was for nothing” was my everything. I didn’t have that money. I didn’t know if the child was mine. I didn’t have family for goodness sake. I have none of them now. So, I hope, it was worth it…. Because you made my everything’s, become nothings….. just – because