I’m so tired of being undesired. Nobody has every considered me more than a friend. I’m only in my third year in high school and have been rejected 7 times. My own mom said I’m not pretty enough to be memorable. I’m so tired of putting all my emotions and feelings out just to be a blur in someone else’s web of existence. I almost killed myself twice. I’m in pain everyday at my mediocre life. At school, I hate life being a dead man walking. At home I walk on eggshells because of my dads anger. I hide my s******** and who I am from my parents and everyone. I wish I could just live through my dreams, they are what keep me alive. My lucid dreams of what could have been make my hope complete. I’m just tired.