I tried so hard for so long to get into this one field and I ended up…a janitor. I clean up after people who do what I wanted to do. And they act like they don’t even want their jobs. They ask why I don’t apply…fuckers, don’t you know how hard I tried? You said no. Again and again and again. Now my credentials have expired and I’m five years too old to apply, and you finally decide maybe I’m worthy after all? F*** you. And f*** me for crying about what could have been. I’ve got a toilet to scrub.