He’s only ever been kind and loving and accepting of my body. I put 20-30 pounds on since I met him and I wasn’t small to begin. He holds me. Loves me. Fucks me every day we’re together. Kisses me. Holds my hand. But how? I feel so disgusting. I’m sad. When I was lighter I used to ride him and he loved it. I can’t any more. I feel like I’m crushing him and I used to be able to c** that way. How can he be turned on? I just want to be pretty for him. And he wants to know why I’m feeling down but I don’t want to tell him. I feel like it’d be an insult.. I just don’t know how he can touch me or look at me the way he does.