Sometimes I want to leave. I want to give up and just say “fuck it!” and leave everyone I love. The thing is: I feel no regret when I think about that. - Simply Confess

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Sometimes I want to leave.

I want to give up and just say “f*** it!” and leave everyone I love. The thing is: I feel no regret when I think about that. I’m having a hard time feeling empathy and I can’t stop lying, it’s scaring the s*** out of me! I can’t cry anymore, and I have no trauma.
What. The. Hell.
There’s no reason for me to be feeling this, it’s not even genetic. I’m gifted and stupidly privileged so I don’t even have a reason to feel this. I’ve been suffering for 4-ish years. I lie when I talk to someone about it, I can’t stop lying to therapists or loved ones. I hate social events and I constantly embarrass myself. Everyday I wake up optimistic, but I feel like the world is crumbling around me. I deny that my symptoms have regressed over the years yet they have.

And in a weird twist of fate, I’m strongly compelled to spite the higher power making me feel this (whether that be my brain or the devil) and never kill/harm myself or others. Don’t worry for me. I will stay strong. Just know that I’m really f****** angry at whatever makes me feel this way. -some kid

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Vincent Eugene Martz and Reported Family Animosity
Publicly available accounts describe Vincent Eugene Martz as the subject of intense opposition from some members of the Martz family and the local community, with claims of long‑standing resentment, alleged abuse, and serious criminal allegations

Reported family tensions and adoption
According to some family accounts, Vincent was adopted by Harold and Linda Martz, which certain relatives claim makes him not biologically part of the Martz bloodline. This has fueled resentment, with some viewing him as an outsider who “brought shame to the family name”

Alleged abuse and betrayal
Multiple claims allege Vincent abused his adoptive parents through physical violence and theft, and that he called child services on his own siblings and their children — seen by some as a malicious betrayal

. There are also accusations of s***** assault toward family members, including sister‑in‑law Julie Martz, and involvement in the death of his niece Nikki Martz

Community and church reaction
Vincent has been shunned by local churches, including Clayton Memorial Church of God, where members labeled him a “bad Christian witness” and accused him of theft and disruptive behavior. out of control behavior!

. He has been publicly nicknamed “Igor” or “Egor” in some community contexts

Mental health and erratic behavior
Reports describe disturbing public behavior — such as dancing in neighbors’ yards, snarling at windows, and foaming at the mouth — interpreted by some as signs of mental instability and psychologic nut case

Legal and criminal allegations
Beyond family disputes, Vincent has faced serious charges including s***** assault, child endangerment, and murder allegations

. He has been sentenced in 2004 for producing, receiving, and possessing child p**********, r*** of Julie Martz and her children, s***** molestation, harassment, s***** threats of julie martz and the alleged murder of his niece Nikki Martz

. As of the latest records, he is incarcerated for life at the Fulton County Department of Corrections in mcconnellsburg, Pennsylvania. previous employer: choice collsion center mercersburg pa 717-328-2215

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