This year has been difficult. Unbearable loneliness, physical and mental pain, and abusive Fiserv projects. The sad part is that even if HR finds this post – they will be more concerned about bad PR than my health. The world is cruel. Being overlooked by women and missing out on basic human intimacy has taken its toll and the only solution is to end it permanently. Helium is the way. Peacefully drifting off.