I’ve no idea what I want out of life anymore, and I think its because I crave control where I know none can be had. I love my kids but my partner now feels like a friend, my friends are strangers and my work colleagues get on my nerves a lot. I don’t enjoy what I used to and can’t afford to start anything new. O look at myself 20 years ago and know I could blame a lot on old relationships that drained my money and my faith in humanity. So here we are. That’s it and I don’t care because it’s too damned hard to think about, so I sit numb at my office desk and stare blankly at a screen for hours on end, doing little productive. Yay 2022.