I like my best friend more than “friend” but I know deep down he won’t like me back because we simply can’t be together. But my other friend like him and have been making advances on him and he seems to respond to it. I can’t get mad because they are not responsible for my feelings but at the same time i feel jealous that they guy did not treat me like how he treat my friend. I can only turn a blind eye to what they are doing in front of me and I have to keep my composure. Every day feels like hell where I have to act oblivious in front of them. I have to keep pretending nothing happened and keep my days going. I hate this feeling. I hate this so much. Why do I have to like my best friends? This has been going for 3 years and every single day my heart breaks like a glass every time I see them together. Please, just make this feeling go away or please just take me away
