I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!

when i first started reading the confessions i wanted to help out others!
i am the one who needs help!!!
i stopped reading the confessions, i stopped giving advice, i stopped everything!!!

the reason for that is that every time i would read a confession it would feel as though it was dedicated to me… except that it wasn’t and it would kill me to read it and think about what things would be if it were for me….. i guess i want it to be for me…. i am looking for a thread to hold on to because i love her soooooo f****** much, it is consuming me alive and there is nothing i can do about it. I am in love with her and yet i can only be her friend and watch her being in the arms of someone else, someone that could have been me….

the trick is that she knows im crazy about her… she says she loves me too but….

what am i to do???? i really need help because i cant take it anymore……….