Everyday it gets harder and harder to produce a smile my family knows me as the happy son/brother they have but I don’t remember the last time I could say I was truly happy. I always want to take the “easy” way out but I can’t because I put everyone’s feelings before mine even to the end. I help everyone with there problems but when someone gets to help me I close because I don’t want to be a nuisance to them so I’ll rather bottle it up untill I can’t anymore;