I am so utterly afraid for tomorrow. I live in a house with an abusive sibling and my parents won’t do anything. They are aware of his behaviour, and they are simultaneously afraid of him, and trying to protect him. for the past few months i haven’t been interacting with him. i’ve dealt with his s*** all my life and at a certain point it just became too much. So i cut him out as much as i could to protect my emotions. I don’t talk to him, look at him, if he’s in the same room, I simply leave that room.

This has made him lose his s***. My lack of communing with him was not a conscious decision. It just kind of happened, and now I cannot stop. I cannot will myself to say anything when he is around. He quite literally s**** the life out of the room. if he’s there I cannot enjoy myself. When he’s around I just shut down. it s****.

My parents are going to blame me if christmas goes wrong. it really shouldn’t be my fault if even the tiniest thing can set this man off. the tiniest thing, has him screaming in a person’s face for an hour straight, calling them the most vile things, threatening violence, etc.

Why should I sacrifice my stability and joy for this manchild who gaslit our mother into believing she’s an alcoholic (Fun fact, she is not)

I just want to enjoy tomorrow. is that so much to ask?