I wish I wasnt so afraid to kill myself. My life is meaningless without Siren and shes never coming back. I made very sure of that. I hope shes miserable…Shes f****** an ugly fat dude while Im spending another christmas alone missing her trying to prove that I dont need anyone. Life is a f****** joke. Shes not even here. Im f****** insane. If he survives Ill kill him for defiling her.