I’m still in pain. I’ve been in pain for the last 7 months. During the relationship he made me feel insecure, about his feelings for me and about my body. Basically he dumped me over the phone while I was visiting my parents on another country, but that’s not what hurts. Not even close. I got over that in a week. When I came back however, I agreed to meet him even against my instincts. He saw me and said how much he missed my body and it made me uncomfortable so I told him to stop and to please leave. He didn’t. He started touching me, I told him to stop, he did; for 5 minutes and then he proceeded again. He ended up on top of me kissing my body and feeling me up while I was crying. He didn’t stop until I begged for him to stop. He s******* assaulted me. The person I thought at a time would never hurt me, raped me. Then when he got off me he said next time I should be more clear so this doesn’t happen to me again. I said no at least 9 times. He didn’t listen. It’s been 7 months now, I’m happily in love with someone else, but because of that I can’t enjoy that someone else touches me as I did before. We are in the same course so every time I see his messages on the course group chat I feel nauseous and sick. It’s been 7 months and I still cry over the SA. It’s been 7 months and I still feel the memory hunting me. I don’t know what to do. Or who to talk to. But i feel I’m driving myself insane and I don’t know what to do anymore.