I’m so depressed. I’ve been in a 5 year relationship, that I just don’t know how to leave. It’s probably due to my physical and verbal abuse as a kid all through high school. As an adult, I simply only sought to be loved and to love. If I won the lottery today, I’d vanish into a puff of smoke, to start over and redefine who I was meant to be, and who I was meant to be with. I don’t have a strong connection to family, friends, or even this long-winded, unemotional relationship. I feel alone. I am not happy. I hope and pray that one day I am happy and enjoying life again. Right now, I just do the best I can.
