I miss giving you piggy back rides, playing video games with you, smoking with you, making you laugh, going on late night drives in the country, hearing your voice, your smell… your gentle presence, and especially listening to music with you… I miss hugging you… I miss how alive you made me feel Siren…You made me feel like a hero. You made me feel like I had a purpose. You made me feel like I could push through the haze and get on my feet no matter what was bothering me… If all we can be is friends that’s fine… I dont care. I love you so much, I just want to be close to you, even if that means I never get to kiss you again…Not that I dont want to kiss you, and do many many other things to you, but….I need you back in my life, whatever that means… I dont care how complicated it gets. I dont care if we have to keep it a secret. I dont care how much hard work I have to put in and how many apologies I have to make. I’ll own up to everything. Please just give me one honest chance…I know I don’t deserve it, but I want it so bad. It would change my entire life radically for the better overnight. I know I do bad stuff but I f****** love you babe.
