Siren, Im gonna make sure i stay medicated for an entire year, that way i can always see clearly. It cures my executive dysfunction, Ive never taken a pill that can do that. The earth itself is my cure. That’s not sad, thats poetic. All is one, one is all. Im not scared to put in the time and effort. It feels like im just beginning my life. My antidepressants cancel out the psychoactive properties and i take a very minoscule amount, maybe 1 gram at a time every other day. The combination, Its like cbd for my frontal lobe. It makes my adhd and bpd manageable, and it protects you from my shadow. I have to stay on the path no matter what. I think Im gonna need more time to prove to you that Im serious. I can talk the talk, but I have to walk the walk, and im still learning how to be happy and move forward without self destructing. I have to leaen to love myself and understand myself, to forgive myself, before I can ever love someone the way I want to love you in the deepest depths of my manic heart. Im done using the internet this weekend. My anxiety 8s high and i camt do impulsive s*** on the internet when im having a meltdown if the internet is locked away. Its just enough seperation for my adhd to actually be useful and stop me from bothering. It worked all week. Growing up andaturing do3snt mean i cant use the internet, it means I need to be more self-aware and avoid triggers when myental health is flaring up. Im never gonna hit on you like a creep again.