Dear Juan,
I’m sorry things didn’t work out for us. There was a time when I could envision us spending our lives together and I even thought we were special, meant to be together. You wanted me to be your mistress and I can’t do that to myself. I deserve more than that. I thought if our paths crossed again after so many years seperated that our connection was special but maybe we reconnected because you were lonely and not because you loved me. You said you cherished me and that your heart was committed to me but those statements seem manipulative. I think they were meant to keep me and my heart in a bind — to keep me loyal to you. What we had was an emotional affair but it is over. Good luck in your life. I hope you make amazing things happen for yourself. I am choosing to move on. I am choosing to let go of the hopes I once had for us. I am choosing to have a different future. I am grieving the person I thought you were. I am grieving the friendship we once had.
