Hi. I normally seek out these sort of websites to unload the desires or feelings I can’t exactly express anywhere else or to anyone. I’ve long realized that I am unique in my way of thinking so I don’t bother trying to open up to people who won’t understand me.

I have a huge issue with escapism. I always have. Ever since I was young I’d look into every fantasy possible and strip thr Internet of information about them to a T. I’ve gotten into the idea of escaping to a forest and getting lost on purpose, only to have myself face to face with the shadows that no one sees because they’re too busy looking at their screens. Ive had illusions of being bitten and turning into a werewolf, running off towards my new pack, ready to serve as a worthy member. I’ve escaped into stories of romance and commitment, The type that have you leaving your world to be with. A bubble that no one darest to break.
We get it. I’ve got my head in the clouds. This world, life, that I’m in is just something I don’t want to be a part of. Everytime I’ve physically tried to run away, it pulls me back. So I settle with the fantasies I make up inside my head, that I long for to exist.

If you’re still reading, I appreciate you. Thank you.

Lately, I’ve just gotten out of a particularly abusive relationship. I was stalked by him heavily for a month after the relationship ended before he found himself a new center of attention that would better fall for his tricks. I should feel relieved right…? I’ve also gotten into a fandom for this game thats, currently being made called ‘Your Boyfriend’ about a young man that obsesses over a young woman and after having stalked her personally for a few months and watching her sleep at night,he approaches her asking to go on a date. You as the protagonist can choose to be creeped out or accept but either way it all ends the same way, he gets too jealous of the friends youre close to and will begin to kill them. He will knock you out and take you back to his home. He is under the delusion that you and him are destined to be together.He loves, lusts and obsesses over you so much it compells him more than anything, including logic and reason.

The game itself is, mediocre. But the concept is golden, the fan community itself truly evolves it into something beautiful and unfathomable.
Ive always had a bit of a fascination towards corrupted minds. And yet, I’ve been through so much already so I shouldn’t be into it, right..?

Wrong.

This is my confession. Albeit, a lonely and pathetic confession. I want to be obsessed over, I want to be taken away. I want to be taken completely. Maybe this is just a warped mix of my desire to be loved, my need for escape and my already paranoid state. But I desperately look through the crowds every day searching for the one that will take me away. The one that will see me and want all of me.

Again…aren’t my fantasies just wonderful? I’m aware this isn’t how the real world works… if someone took someone as willing as i am, im not exactly fun… Am i? Id be replaced in an instant.

Nice to meet you. Thank you for indulging in my incoherent kicking and screaming.
Have a nice day.