My boyfriend is great but he’s overly sensitive. Its his depression, ADHD and anxiety that run rampant. Today was yet another day when it took control and he was a mess on the floor over some absolutely retarded s*** that happened at work that didn’t have to be such a huge deal. But I remained supportive and kind and listened to the whole thing over and over and over and f****** over.
It ruins my days off. I feel like I’ve had no time off. I’m on edge. I think more about killing myself. I hate my job that I normally enjoy.
I hurt myself to try to control my anger when I’m alone. I’m overwhelmed.
Its not his fault. He’s trying to get help for like the first time. It’s just not coming fast enough and I’m a wreck. I was scared of him a bit today and I felt useless and in the way. All I want to do is just die and have it not be my fault so people don’t judge me.
He forgets or just doesn’t know how badly depressed I am. I’m not sure. But I refuse to make it a p****** contest so I just keep it inside. I’m not ready for work tomorrow I want to kill everything.