im slowing everyone else down. no matter what i do they never seem happy about it. im sick and tired of my friends. i cant talk to any of them. ive self harmed multiple times but nowadays i have to refrain from cutting myself so my mom wont see them as she forces me to strip naked and wear whatever she wants. i wanna cry. im not a prodigy. im not academically gifted. im so anxious about everything. constantly scared about this or that. im underweight but i feel so fat. im insecure. im jealous. im ashamed for liking the things i like. i have no motivation to do anything. nothing makes me happy except sleeping and having nobody around. i dont wanna die but im strugging so bad.
