I feel like I’ll never truly Get over my first love. At this point, I dont want him back, and he wouldn’t be a factor if me and someone Else would be a thing, But it still hurts. We were so young, and I loved him deeper than I ever could Imagine. I was a depressed, immature kid when I was with him, I regret that we didnt meet in later years instead. He was an immature d*** too, But I hate myself for all MY wrongdoings. I should have been better. In reality I hates myself every day. Finally, I am becoming a more naturen version of myself that I actually like. Finally I feel able to be healthy to myself, and healthy in a relationship with someone I love. I just feel this big, overwhelming feeling of sadness and regret over it. I wish I could have been better, I wish I didnt feel this kind of hurt.