my father is a complete dickhead. an abuser doesn’t have any control over his anger. I hate to say this but I am like that too. you don’t know how much I hate myself for that. I just hate myself a lot.
he damaged me. he destroyed my childhood. I don’t have a childhood because of him. he yells at me for no reason, says so much hurtful stuff to me for no reason. taunts me for everything, food, clothes, medicine everything . A to Z. I hate myself that I have a resemblance to him. he doesn’t know how much he destroyed me. he doesn’t know how many times I cut my arm because of him. a father isn’t supposed to be like the. A father is supposed to be supportive, loving. why couldn’t I have a normal father? I am sorry that I am that bad, I am aware I am bad. but I can’t do anything. I wish I could end things, only if it wasn’t haram. maybe someday I will just do it, and my soul will regret it but I will try not to do it. sorry for the burden I wish not to be alive either. can’t love you anymore. cause you stopped, you abandoned me.