i want to cry but i can’t. i want to die but i can’t. i need something but i don’t know if i deserve it. *i know i don’t. but i want it. i need peace so bad. in quiet, my head there’s a noise. even in calm, its storm that i hear. i try to go somewhere else but it keeps making me look back to it. i try to pray and be good as God wanted to not think about it as someone said but no matter how much i deny or be silent it still speaks on its own accordance. like flashing torch light to darkness but i still see the shadow.
