perhaps this is the only place I can share anything about pain, my pain to be more specific, I am already suffering enough and I’m starting to realize why often people who kill themselves do it so discrete and silently, that is, because once you try to explain it to others, everything falls apart. It’s a horrible introduction, I know, but who really cares? english is not even my first language, so why should I worry about not writing an introduction properly? thing is I don’t have to. To put it simple, I want to kill myself, don’t know how or if I even actually have the guts to do it, but I know I am at the verge of doing so, I want everything to stop, I want peace, calm, silence, but, repeating
“I want:…..” is really selfish, I wouldn’t want it to be that way but it is inevitable, im human, I’m greedy, selfish, I don’t deserve to be here, wasting electricity typing this trash just to try and calm me, everything would be better if the precious time I own, was instead given to someone else who does need it, or can do something good with it. I’m scared
of everything
im a coward
i want all to stop
feeling good
feeling bad
feeling
stop
please
