I had this one friend I knew since seventh grade. We were never close until 10th grade where her dad took us to a water park. I mistook her as a good friend because on the last day of school that year, she promised me (via text) to go that day. I ended up being the only person in my class present. I spent the whole day in the library, embarrassed and heartbroken.
I also have a friend I knew since sixth grade, she just moved in. We were very close; she sits next to me in class, we both draw and watch the same movies and read the same books. I was the first friend to call her when her father passed while we were both in college. I was sobbing in my dorm listening to her trembling voice on the line. But today, even with attempts to connect with her, she seemed to not care about me anymore. I tried texting her and I can tell she felt forced. Sent and read. That’s it.
Another one also in college. My roommate. We were like sisters (she’s annoying but I cared bout her). I even had to take her to the hospital one time on the middle of the night (3am I think) because she fainted. I had class the next day but it didn’t matter then. After two semesters (and sem break),she completely ignores me. I never knew why for months until someone mentioned it. It turns out because I was too noisy ONE TIME. I might have raised my voice a little too high for a couple minutes without realising. If only she told me I’d straight up apologise. But she didn’t. She left for home without saying goodbye. Thank Lord we had to change roommates.
I wish this was some friendship drama on tv but it’s not. I don’t know these happened because I was a bad friend or that I was nice enough for people to step on me. Use me. Truth is no one really cares. I hate talking about these but I needed to let it out. I have a hard time forgiving them but sometimes I question myself.. do I even need to?
