Today my sister posted pictures from the USA showing her achievements (Academically). At that moment I really felt so angry and hateful towards her. Simply put, I am better than her. Far, far, far better. I could achieve way more than she could. I could achieve way more than everybody. My ‘friends’, two-faced classmates, my cousins. But I am getting f****** hold back. And all of this is happening because of my parents. They are destroying me. In a bid to dominate one another and satisfy their dreams and wishes, I am getting struck back. No one can be trusted. Everyone is a f****** dissapointment. Apparently everyone is awesome. They can do so many things. Only I am not getting done anything. That is simply not true. If this nonsense lockdown did not take place I would have a lot of freedom to execute my will. I would have achieved a great deal. Everyone will leave me behind. I will lose. And the pain of not been able to do anything hurts the most. I wish I could have just made everyone suffer like me. Then they would have understood why I am what I am.
