currently job hunting. i’m looking for a job as a sub french teacher. i go out everyday to apply in schools near and far. i’m the youngest in a large family and the only one without a stable job. i’m under so much pressure it’s crazy. my family is dysfunctional and nothing is done properly. it’s a blaming game and we’re all at each others’ throats. 2 of my siblings are doctors and i always felt inferior to them but i only started feeling that way because the rest of the family, my mother especially, treated them better than me. my brother is basically an a****** and my mother always forgives him because he promises her money. i stopped talking to my family months ago even though we live in the same house.
i got home from another day of job searching to find my mother and brother talking normally as if he didn’t swear at her 2 days ago. she forgave him because he promised to buy her a phone.
they tried to joke with me knowing i can’t hold a poker face to save my life but i was angry and tired so i ignored them easily. at one point brother tried to talk to me but i ignored him again and then he laughed and said something that sort of meant ” you’re the one who asked for it… ” i’m 100% sure he was refering to our jobs and me being unemployed. like i have only myself to blame for that.
i hate him. i hate my mother. i hate the rest of them.
