My best friend is dealing with addiction and hasn’t spoken to me since December. I don’t know why she cut me out but I feel a small amount of anger towards her for “checking out” of my life. I also love her greatly. I’ve never told her that I have feelings for her and I’m afraid I’ll never get the chance to do so. I tried keeping in touch with her but I never got any response. She completely disappeared from my life and it is one of the hardest things I have had to deal with.